why cant it be like in kindergarden, when none of the stupid highschool drama that goes on in lives of girls my age ever happend, when everyone was friendly with everyone and played with everyone.. where did those days go? make new friends and keep the old? its SO hard to make friends at this age, people are soo quick to judge, soo quick to put up a wall..
it sucks more than ever right now that this is supposed to be the best summer of my life, but its the worst. i wish more than anything right now that i had a best friend, i have noone to go shopping with, noone to tell things too and to cry too, i want that more than anything, and its just not there for me right now... :/ i guess ill never have one.. and its not my fault, i dont wanna be friends with any of the friends i had, becuase they turned their backs on me, were disloyal to me, and hurt me in a way i never thought that i would be hurt. i miss them more than anything, but i dont want to care about people who dont care about me.
i hate that this is such a sad blog, because ussually my blogs are ussually really happy, and up beat, but im just not very happy today...
i hate my job, ive never felt more talked down too and disrespected in my life.. i hate it there, i want to leave there so bad.
i feel fat, and i dont feel any motivation to do anything about it, even though i wish i coul more than anything.
its just not a good day today:/
and on top of all of this, noone even ever reads this, sooo.. i guess i really am alone.
i pray that everyone in the world that feels the way that i do, just know that you arent alone. that im right there with you. and that nothing is ever that bad.
p.s sorry i havent been writing a lot.. lots been going on.