a little bit about me.

so sometimes i feel like i have a hard time figureing out what i want to write on here.. its seems to always be about something thats going on in my life, or something that I have relized and learned that i want to share. so i feel like today i want to tell you guys a little bit more about myself so that you have some idea whats behind all of these posts! My name is Stephanie, if you couldnt tell... haha I am 20 years old, going to be 21 on November 16th! ( make sure to wish me a Happy Birthday!;)) I have one older brother who is 26. We get along very well, but of course we have our disagreements, anddd he likes to beat me up every once and a while, but other than that we have all of the same friends and we hang out more than other siblings do. I have the BEST Father that i think that i could have everrr asked for, and a lovable mother, I am more of a Daddys girl, but i love my mother a ton! I am not in school at the time, but I plan on attending a community college next semester for phsycology and business. I loveee to cook, and eventually want to own my own restaurant one day. I feel like im constantly intrested into something new like everyday but i feel like that makes me unique. anywaysss i dont think theres anything else that i need to add here, buttt if you think that you have anything that you might want to know about me please feel free to ask! not that anyone really reads this thing.. with love, stephanie

clarity

sometimes it takes other people putting things in perspective for you to really relize that things really do happen for a reason. let me tell you a story. me and my frieds go to this bar eveynight on tuesdays for kareoke. Well probably three months ago I met this guy there, his name is brian. well brian and I continued to ahng out after we met and it turned into a hook up. Well i told him originally that that was exactaly what i diddnt want and he insisted that, that wasnt the case. (insert every womens recaction here.) after about three months of hooking up and lies and whatever else he wants to call it, i called him out on all of his bullshit. andd pretty much that ship sailed.. wellllll three moinths later tonight actually i went to the same bar. and its so funny because i honestly am a firm believer that everything really does happen or a reason. Well as i walk into the bar the first people that I see are brians cousin and his friend. suprisngly they were actually really nice to me! they continued to talk about how much of a douche bag brian really is. Okay, if you OWN cousin is telling someone that you arent a good person, than there honestly has to be something wrong. They really showed me what kind of a person he really is, and it makes me happier about what happend, that i dodged a bullet and that this was meant to happen that way because somthing out there that is so much better is waiting for me. with love and clarity, Stephanie

a couple years ago..

The last time I wrote on my blog was a couple years back. I think I was 18 or 19. I felt as if within the next couple of years I would be on the way to figuring my life out... Boy was I wrong..... Here I am sitting in my bed years later on a rainy day feeling as if the world is passing me by. I feel as though the thought of, "where is my life going from here?" is constantly lingering on my mind. I have a hard time figuring out what my passions are, and what I really want to make out of this life. Here are the things that I know that I want: I want love. I know that to some it may seem as though my priorities are out of wack. But I believe that love is the most important thing in this life. Without love there is nothing. No hope that things can be right, no happiness nothing can be of more importance than love. I want happiness. I want more than anything than to look back on this life and believe that I have done everything that ive wanted to do, and that I am completly and utterly happy with the outcome. This time I dont know where i will be a couple years from now.. I dont know that things will ever turn out to be the way that I want them to be. But what I do know is that fate isnt by choice, its by chance. And im ready to take the ride to figure out what fate might bring me. With Love and happiness, Stephanie